Keep Calm and Move on Gracefully

 I don't know you. The only thing I know about you is, you're reading this. I don't know if your happy or not; I don't know whether you're young or not. I sort of hope you're young and sad. If you're old and happy, I can imagine that you'll smile to yourself when you hear me going, he broke my heart. You'll remember someone who broke your heart, and you'll think to yourself, Oh yes, i remember how that feels. But you can't, you smug old git. Oh you'll remember feeling sort of pleasantly sad. You might remember listening to music and eating chocolates in your room, or walking along the embankment on your own, wrapped up in a coat and feeling lonely and brave. But can you remember how with every mouthful of food it felt like you were biting into your own stomach? Can you remember the taste of liquor as it came back up and into the toilet bowl? Can you remember dreaming every night that you were still together, that he was talking to you gently and touching you, so that every morning when you woke up you had to go through it all over again?

I love sleeping with him and cuddling. I love everything about him, and always hoped he loved me as much. Sometimes I am not sure.

I heard someone said it was love at first sight. I don't really believe in love at first sight but I have to admit, the first time I saw him there was like a virtual chemical tsunami inside me. It all happened a year ago but I can still remember that exact same feeling. I can replay it on my mind with so much detail [Sept. 8, 2012 7:35pm]. There are those times when he was on his way out of the door, I'd rush to him and hug him saying, "let me hug you for 1 minute please, with puppy eyes. Then after that I ask for another 10 seconds." I am literally smiling while remembering and putting that on my draft.

I have a great respect for this guy and for the first time considered someone in my future. I am determined to be better because I want to be the best girl for him. I want him to be proud of me and be worthy of him.

Thinking of the past few weeks. They had been hard.

It was as though he had taken back not only the dream he had offered me but my hope that things would ever be different in any life. If he had beaten me with his fist, he couldn't have caused me more pain.

I thought what we had was real. That our love for each other was forever. Despite several attempts at patching up, he still didn't want me back. But what can I do? I was just a girl in love. I haven't moved on until now. I love him very much. Just thinking about our past makes my life miserable. Everything I do gets affected, Why can't he love me the way I love him? Am I that unlovable that he can't see something good in me? I feel like giving up.

I raised a lot of question. Questions that can be answered best by accepting the fact that we cannot control other people. Humans are free moral beings. I can't just grab his collar and command him to love me. Love is voluntary.

It was love that made me believe that he loved me. It was also love that break my heart. Truth be told, I'm still hurting. Not for what I lost but for what I missed.

More important than the pain, however, is the fact that there is hope after grief. No matter how great my grief, it will be cushioned by an accepting attitude. Acceptance of what? Of truths and realities of life.

Life is an outcome of choices made. We decide how to run our lives and their endings are solely our choices.

I couldn't begin to articulate it at the time but I understand that truth even before everything was over. I knew I had to forgive myself, accept what happened and move on. Until I will, there was no escaping the hold he had on my life. The refusal to do so always meant that I hold on to all my pain, my shame, myself-pity. And it will not, until I will that real healing would even begin. In the end I will be the one who gained.

Though love doesn't always work the way we want, it always have its returns.

I loved him in the amorous sense of the word. Now I can love him in the truest sense - absence of hate or ill will, praying for and continued goodness to him.

Sometimes fate ushers some people out, and when we least expect it, others enter. 

I just have to believe that things will continue to be good from now on. My life is just beginning. 

Received

              I look at you
              and I see a young and lovely lady
With an angelic face and smile
I long for your embrace
Never did I think that I would
Dare to like you even
Yet I hear my heart saying
             That  I really like you so
              and I would If I could
             tell you I love you but all
             I can assure is that
             I live for your smile and die for your
                  Kiss....

What She Learned on Valentines

1. I learned from Paulo Coelho that:
          a.) The meaning of life is the meaning you give to your life.
                     > There is no such thing as a concrete meaning of what life is. We are not created with a manual. We don't have labels or directions on how to use, warnings and cautions. Its a question where you get answers piece by piece as you go on your journey. Its as if like a Jigsaw puzzle. We create the meaning of our own life, we give meaning to it.

         b.) Commitment is very essential not just in relationships but in my own life too.
                    > I do rememberer I once answered, "I don't enter in relationships because I am not ready for a commitment. I still can't commit to someone." Now I realize that is one thing am lacking w/ my life. Commitment is not just applicable to relationships and love. Now I know that I have to commit myself to my life also to have direction and meaning.

2. I learned that : True Love Waits!

3. I learned from Steven Seagul that : Sex is not the only thing in Life.

4. Love is not just a Romantic thing.

5. Enjoy every bit of a moment may it be good or bad.

Nobel Part1 of Part1

The SECRET: Law of Attraction - we live in this one law.
-> everything that is coming into your life, you are attracting into your life.
-> whatever is going into your mind you are attracting to you.
-> like attracts like.
-> our job as humans is to hold on to the thoughts of all we want.
           * make it absolute clear what you wan > __?____
-> you become what you think about most but you also attract what you think about most.
-> When you see it in your mind. You hold it in your hands.

• LAW OF ATTRACTION - this principle can be summed up in three simple words:

                                                      "Thoughts Become Things"
-Thoughts are sending out that magnetic signal that is drawing the parallel back to you.

Here is the problem, people are thinking what they DON'T WANT and wondering why it shows over and over again.
The LA doesn't care whether your perceive something to be good or bad or whether you do want and don't want it it's responding to your thoughts.
This is a universe that is based on attraction. Everything is about attraction. The LA is always working whether you believe it understand it or not.

*If you are thinking about how bad it is, your making it worst.
*If you focus at a lot of things w/ passion it makes it happen even faster.
*All we gotta do is open are eyes and look.

Notice that most of the people who speak of sickness has it and most of the people who speak about prosperity has it. LA is evident everywhere around you. If you are understanding what it is, it has to do w/ you being the magnet attracting thoughts, attracting people, attracting events, attracting life style, indeed everything that you bring into your experience, you bring because of the potential LA.

LA is not equal to wish full thinking or imaginary craziness.

You can't have a universe w/o mind exerting it. The mind is shopping the very thing that is perceived. If you don't understand that doesn't mean you reject it. -->  You can cook a mans dinner w/ electricity an you can also cook a man.

THINGS THAT YOU HAVE TO BE AWARE OF:
=> It is scientifically proven that an affirmative thought is 100 of times powerful than a negative thought.
=> Eliminate the degree off worry.
=> You are in an environment where you thoughts manifest immediately the evidence is long and coming.
=> You want to become aware of your thoughts carefully.
=> You wanna have fun w/ this because your are the masterpiece of your own life and you do it w/ your thoughts.

Most of us attract by default...

EMOTIONAL GUIDANCE SYSTEM:

} Thoughts cause your feelings.
} There are only two emotions from our perspective: One feels good and one feels Bad.
} Our feelings our feedback mechanism to me whether about where on track or not.

"Whatever it is you are feeling is a perfect reflection of what is the process of becoming."

Your getting exactly what your feeling about   not so much w/ what you are thinking about. The simple shifting of emotions can change your entire day and life.

Untitled

If I were to LOVE 
It'll be just only one
I will offer my whole life
I will do everything just to make you HAPPY


Even if you look for other girls
My heart will be silent
You will not hear a single word from me
Just a teardrop will be left as a testimony


Why do I love you,
Even if you love someone else...
Why am I so crazy about you? 
How long will I endure the pain...
Oh, why do I love you


Whatever they say
My feelings for you will never change
And I won't asked anything in return.

The Secret Millionaires Club Episodes 1-8

"I'm good friends with Warren Buffet his gonna teach me how to do my best, learn to invest and have a lot of fun doing it…"


*THE BEST INVEST YOU CAN MAKE IS AN INVESTMENT IN YOURSELF*
*THE MORE YOU LEARN THE MORE YOU'LL EARN*


Episode 1 : Lemons to Lemonade


Essential Elements of a Successful Retail Enterprise :


1. Quality  [check]
2. No Competition [check]
3. Satisfactory Price Point [check]
4. Market (Demand) [check]
5. Good Location ______?


REMEMBER:  "If the people won't come to your business, bring your business to the people."


WORDS FROM WARREN:
Just like a retail business needs a good location to attract customers to its store. You need to think of location too. When You are in a classroom its best to sit in a place where you can listen to the teacher. The better your located enable you to pay attention, the better you'll do in school. Location! Location! Location! Pay attention and listen to learn the most you can.


Episode 2 : Car Wash Capers


ADVERTISING every successful business needs to find different ways to reach their consumers. E.g. Direct mail and mass media. They need to figure out what makes them special.


REMEMBER: "A good idea of how you communicate is like winning in the dark."


WORDS FROM WARREN:
6. It is important to advertise yourself in a positive way so people will see you from the inside out.
7. Always be honest and sincere and never lie under any circumstances.


"Treat other people the way you would like to be treated" --> this is the best advertising of all.


EPISODE 3: WALKIN' THE DOG


BUSINESS PLAN
Without a business plan you'll end up running around like a dog chasing its own tail.
"Almost anyone can run a business if they could learn how to do it."


REMEMBER: " If you fail the plan, plan the fail."


WORDS FROM WARREN:
Planning is important in business and everyday life.
8. You need to prepare for things if you want to be successful.
-Like doing your homework everynight so you can do well on the test.


"The will to prepare is just as important as your will to win."


EPISODE 4: LAWN AND ORDER


SAVE
You should plan better for the future. Sometimes you gotta save your best players for the final quarter and sometimes you have to save a quarter.
" A penny save is a penny invested in your future."


REMEMBER: "It's always a good idea to put something aside this month for the things you need instead of just spending it a day on the things you want."


WORDS FROM WARREN:
Saving money is important for you and for your lifetime. You should put aside some money from what you earn so you can buy the things you need later on.


"A penny save is a penny earned." -Benjamin Franklin


EPISODE 5: WHAT'S SO FUNNY ABOUT P.C'S AND UNDERSTANDING


"You can't tell if it's a winning business if you don't know how to keep score."
If you invested in something you don't understand you have NO WAY of knowing if it's a good business or not. You can't project what might go wrong or what can be done to fix it.
"You got to understand what your getting in to."


REMEMBER: Keep things simple. Don't get involve in a business you don't understand.


WORDS FROM WARREN:
Successful business could also adopt to change. Understanding is important in success in life. You should try to understand another persons point of view and be prepared to change your mind if their point of view makes good sense.


"Learn to understand things before you do it and to think things through before you act."


EPISODE 6: HOUSE OF CARDS


Guessing wrong on trends can lead to trouble in business. Specially when demand is based on fickle consumer sentiment.
-->Invest in something that will always be cool or at least be always on demand.


REMEMBER: Learn from your mistakes or better yet learn from the mistakes of others.


WORDS FROM WARREN:
A business is difficult to judge if supply and demand of a product is based on fickle sentiment of consumers.
--> You always want to invest in a business that is always predictable and dependable. Other wise, you'll end up making up mistakes.


This is similar in making friends if you are fickle and not reliable and dependable people will never know how to judge you.


"Always be reliable, consistent friends with others."


EPISODE 8: THE BIG TRADE-OFF


TRADE-OFF
Deciding to take off one thing in order to get more of something else.
So you have to figure out the upside and downside of any decision.


REMEMBER: "It's important to make the right trade-offs so you can have a balance life."
"Never trade your reputation for anything."


WORDS FROM WARREN:
A business is faced with many choices and it is important to the managers of the business to evaluate the right trade-offs to be successful.


Evaluating trade-offs and making the right decisions are also important in life.
-"I recommend studying and learning things you never know before."

NEVER WAS

(Written one rainy day in the silence of the night of May in the year 2010, 2300hr inside my room. I hope you like it:-D )

I want a man who will not just love me,

but love God above anything else

I want a man who will love me for who I am,

but love me more for what I am not

I want a man who will not just take care of me,

but can take care of himself as well

I want a man who will not just be honest to me,

but means what he says

I want a man who will not just built his world around me,

but makes a world where we can both fit in

I want a man who will respect me,

but will have faith in me more

I want a simple man, who loves simple things

and in it he finds happiness that lasts a lifetime

I want a man who is strong,

strong enough to stand for what he believes,

but stronger enough to consider and appreciate the belief of others

I want a man who manage to smile in the midst's of battle,

as if telling me "don't worry everything will be alright"

I want a man who will protect me,

but let me feel the pain

I want a man who assures me security,

but wants me to trust him more

Oh how I wish this kind of man will come along, but I will still Love a man

even if he is not the way I want

as long as he makes me see that he is ready

to be the man more than what I want...